Seriously I've been thinking alot , i guess i need nobody else other than him . I think I've put all my feelings in to th point tht there's no return . All i ask for is a chance to be with him and even if it ends badly at least I've got no regrets cause i know I've tried my best and tht's all tht matters . I think heaven is out to make a fool out of me . Friends who i treat as good friends ended up falling for me but mcvin just gives me th cold shoulder and everything else . Why can't mcvin just fall for me and let everything be just how i wanted . Friends will be friends , mcvin - my boyf . It would be perfect if everything turns out th way i wanted . Oh lord , pls do me this favour just once and i''ll die a happy person when my time is up . And i promise to try my best too help ppl in need .

Why can't mcvin just try considering me ? Am i tht lousy , ugly , immature , and everything tht is not up to his expectations ? I'm still waitting , until one day when mcvin tells me in my face tht he would never accept me as his girlf or rather have a new girlf then my heart would stop beating for him . and tht is th promise i made to myself . So for now all i cn do is to wait for him to get back frm Korea .

Seriously i love you .